Overall my work was succesfull and I am pleased with the outcome.

As my wooden box couldn't support more than 50 kg, I decided to overcome this probleme by adding this restriction to my concept. If we don't weigh the proper weight, or if we are not tall enough we are restricted in doing something and in this case laying on the bed. In other cases modelling, beeing a jockey, going on rides at Winter wonderland (too light not able to do the rollercoaster). I also wanted to show the structure of my bed (wooden box) as I think it was interesting to see my process, and also show that essentially this is just a wooden box, all this performance to lay on a wooden box. If I had covered my whole structure with soft material then one could expect a soft matress. However, I wanted to educate the public by showing exactely how it would feel to be on the "bed". They could imagine exactely the sensation, and because it is a hard wood underneath the tshirts it shows that in fact it is not that comfortable. And it is pointless to weigh 49.5kg just to lay on the bed. Still, this will frustrate people, just because they are not allowed to do it, this is in human nature. Sometimes people get very frustrated for something not worth but they will still fight hard for this. Several people came to me saying how comfortable my bed looks and how much they want to throw themselves on it, however as soon as I showed the scale and said that they could if they weigh 49.5 they didn't even try. This is important as it immediately gave them a sense of frustration. As this idea came from my first projected and is connected to it, I felt it was very important to show the pictures of my movie and it would give a clue to the understanding of my piece.

Through my piece I wanted to show society's uniform and code and how we are pressured into beeing the same, and we look up to the fashion models such as Gigi Hadid, Kate Moss and Cara Delevigne almost worshipping them and their body, celebrating their beauty. I just read an article about a girl who went under 60 different plastic surgeries to look like a barbie doll  (look research). This really shows how far some people are ready to go to become their vision of "perfect" a fake and superficial barbie or the model icon. All this struggle and materialism takes away from the real purpose of our lives, and the authenticity.

For this reason, I've put jeans and T shirts as I feel everyone wears them almost as if they were a uniform, and everyone therefore looks the same and this conceals our own identity which rots under the layers. Connnected to my video, I wanted to show how much some people are suffering from this uniform conceiling our identity. And therefore I've put a multitude of jeans and t shirts on my piece. I decided to put the jeans first and then add the t shirts with one nail in the middle, this could remind anyone of sky or essentially make a connection to the water in my videoand t shirts floating on it as flowers or buoy asking for help (look video),My work remains abstract and therefore I want people to think by themselves rather than me imposing my own conclusions this is why i've put my tshirts  like flowers or buoy, so i could have different interpretations. The reason I stuffed them was so the works look inviting and to give a sense of frustration to the audience and make them reflect on why they are not able to be on the bed. My performance will be truly finished when I find something weighing the proper weight and able to be on the bed, I will then photograph her and show to the world what our society forces us to be. But as this is very hard to find, I decided to put a shop mannequin instead, and put some make up on her, showing society's ideal. As someone suggested once my mannequin is in there, I should make the work stand upright so it becomes a canvas and it is impressive so we'll have to look up to the mannequin which is what we do metephorically. However, I struggled with this as I couldn't tigh the mannequin unless with a big ducktape which I didn't appreciate. I overcome this problem by putting it on a plinth and this I felt was even  more successfull as like Duchamp I have elevated a shop mannequin on a plinth to show that this is what we worship. On photoshop I have experimented with legs and how nowadays it is all about having skinny legs, and made a collage out of it. I also tried to make a robot with the face of gigi, kylie Jenner, cara delevigne and Kate moss, showing our so called "stars" and the perfect "mix" which is an ugly robot. Finally i've added eyes to my fake mannequin and lips, with lots of make up following the same idea, a society robot.

What didn't go well was that I had to tell people that my scale was part of my work, if I had more time  i would have integrated to my work by putting it onto a plinth acting as a step so people would have to step on it before they reach the bed. I also think that my bed was too low, and it would have been more successful if the work was higher up, so it would feel like a proper bed. 

After Suji's feedback, the suggestion to put my work standing up, I will experiment with this and try to adapt my concept and performance to work in this way as I realised that it was much more impressive and sometimes it is more important to look at the final effect than the concept. This may draw more people attention.

Hampus: Your work reminds me of the four basic elements. The hat you made is bright orange and it looks like a flame, the "bed" looks like a sky with clouds, you talk about a journey and you walk through the earth, and finally you throw the hat into the water. It looks like you are trying to make a point about the environnement and the society, also it is very interesting to see that the girl is throwing away her jeans and white t shirts on the road and leaving them like that. It feels like you are showing what humans do daily to nature. It also reminds me of the incident of Bengladesh the Rana Plazza, where all these people were crushed by buildings which collapsed and whom were owned by companies such as H and M who pays them a minimum wage, and make them work in poor conditions. These people are almost "slaves". 

Secondly, I find that your work has come a long way and the sculpture-hat is much more interesting now then when you show it to us, white and black. It now has a meaning that we understand or we can relate to, and the series of picture are very well connected to your sculpture, it feels like a whole, a story.

Jen Ho: I just want to sit and throw myself onto your bed but as soon as I saw the scale I was put off because I knew that I didn't weigh 49.5 kg. This performance reminds me of society, and how if we do not corespond to the society codes such as weight we are restricted from doing things such as modelling, jockey (horseriding), car racing...

Nikita It looks like you are telling a story. The fact that there is the scale for us to weigh ourselves and the jeans in front reminds me of my daily life and how self concious I am. Jeans are for me the reason I'm self-conscious, and constant reminder of my weight, i'm always scared I will not be able to fit into my jeans because i've put on some weight etc...

Sirine: objects from our daily life, it reminds us of people. 

Suji You should look at artist Louise Bourgeois, and Shiaru shiota. I also think that your work will look better and much more impressive standing up.

Anna Lucia The fact that you stuff the jeans makes us feels like  they are living jeans trapped in a spiderweb not beeing able to get out. This is almost a metaphor, to our society trapped in codes, in blue jeans.

Stephanie: It feels like a lot of people are on your bed and for some reason we are rejected because we cannot "join" them.

I am interested  by Hampus Idea, the four elements it is a total new concept and I didn't think about it before, however it relates to my idea somehow. He relates my work to pollution, and the way we human destroy the four elements because my work is essentially the way materialism destroy authenticity, similarly materialism, the making of jeans for instance, but also the making of fancy villas and buissness buildings such as the Shard or trump tower has a considerable effect on the environnement it conceils nature's true identity, it conceals the authenticity of our earth as they hide its original components or its original function. We should on the other hand, build structures that preserves the natures, eco friendly structures, respectful of the environnement and suited to it.  

Anna Lucia, really understood my idea when she said it feels like living jeans, trapped by this gigantic spiderweb, almost like some may feel when they wear these jeans, or our society. This is very successful as I based my work on a quote I read at the saatchi gallery "It"s like a spider web, I am trapped and every move I make I get stuck even more and there is no way out... ". So the idea of Jeans alive is exactely what I wanted to show.  Stephanie's feeeling of rejection adds to this idea, she felt that a group of people were already on the bed and that they rejected her as she was not weighing the same, this shows that my work was successful, I wanted to give a sense of frustration to the audience, a feeling of rejection and restriction because they are not adequate. Like Jun Ho said, it is representative of our society, all the things we cannot do because we don't weigh the proper weight for instance modelling, or beeing a jockey. It shows how our society restricts us, and conforms us to become an ideal, to get the model body we saw on the last Vogue magazine. 

Nikita relates to my work as her personal experience, and how jeans are signs that she puts on weight or not and how she feels scared not to fit in her jeans, and they are often the reason of her self- consciousness this is the perfect example of someone feeling pressured by our society "roles model" and the wish to get a perfect body when in fact beauty is in the difference and variety. And this exactely what I wanted to show, she could be in fact the girl in my movie throwing her soul as a buoy to the water

After my video and my recent analysis, i know I want to show how many people are suffering from society "uniform", and I first thought of including my video in my final work, as part of my piece. I thought of hanging clothes from the ceiling (like Karina Kaikkonen) with sounds and noise, reminding people of a journey, ambulance sounds, car sounds, people walking. A walk in the city nowadays from one point to the other, for instance their house to work/uni. People would have to go through and arrive to the video. If I do this, I would then make a connection between my video and the installation. Both of them are about a journey and the quantity of clothes shows how many people are like the girl in the video suffering from normalisation. The audience would actually have to walk along the corridor and the clothes in order to arrive to the final destination "the video". The performance would then be quite powerful.

As an alternative I thought of designing white and blue jeans sheets with the phrase I'm Okay. However i  eliminated this idea as I want to have a final 3 dimensional piece that is not temporary.

 After research, I chose to create a  rectangle wooden box base as my structure for all the clothes. I felt this would look better as the "sofness of the textile texture does not allow me to create big piece of work unless you pile an infinity of these (too expensive), therefore I wanted to add my piece to a wooden structure. I feel the work has to big, in order for people to experiment with it and to empower them into taking action. I personally feel that big works have a bigger impact on a persons emotions especially as a social experiment (anish kapoor). I've spent 2 days in the workshop trying to create a 200 x 100 x 20 cm box with a 22 mm panel boards. This was a challenging task, as the panel was too thin for such dimensions, so we added a wood cubes to strengthen the structures. While practicing, I change my idea several time. At first, I thought of just using the two pannels and creating an experiment inspired by Robert Morris experiments at the tate. The walls would have had 60 cm and people would try to go through this "corridor" feeling pressured by the two pannels as they would not have enough space to walk in between the two pannels comfortable or freely. As I was experimenting with jeans, I would put jeans on either sides of the corridor. By doing this I would overcome the problems of making a box, and the technical issue as the wood is too thin. But eventually we managed to create a box, the idea still remain though as the box could stand upright and if put at a 55cm distance to a wall. As previously said, I wish to show through the jeans and tshirts how our society is pressured in beeing the same, white t shirts and blue jeans shows our society "uniform". With the movie I created the person takes off the jeans and white t shirt and we see her desperate personality in orange (see below). If I create an experiment where on one side you would have all the jeans and tshirts and on the inside of the corridor you would find this neon orange on a polyeurethane foam, this would successfully demonstrates society pressure on people. 

The dimensions of the box, though kept reminding me of a bed and I couldn't get this idea out of my head. I decided therefore to play with it, and imagined my work as a bed where i would attach clothes, however I noticed that my "bed" would not be able to support more than 50 kilos as the wood would break. This restriction made my work evolve, I could play with this idea that if you're not exactly 49.5 kilos (average weight of victoria secret model) you cannot lay on the bed, this was inspired by a book called  the "myth of the body" (look research). By doing this, i hope to represent society pressure and ideology.

10 min crit on my work.

May: The shape of the sculpture is successful, it immediately appeals to you and makes you curious. You want to understand it and touch it.

Megan: It feels like you have added random objects, and these don't make sens in your sculpture. It distract us from the meaning of your work and it would be more comtemporary if you didn't have them, also the fairylights are in complete contradiction with your work (brutality). I like the black triangles, they are captivating and makes me want to know about the work, however it would be more successfull if these were more organised and they were more of them. You should also focus more on the journey and the fact that they discover themselves during the journey rather than the end point : "water". 

Isabel: I think you should consider your "hat" as a sculpture as well as a performance. I don't understand how the performance make your work stronger. It is interesting in itself.  

Charlie: The video is interesting but i think you should take your work furether by performing in the actual classroom and walk among us. You should be more considerate about the actual objects, and make some link. You shouldn't make your work to illustrative and talking about women in Africa is generalizing. When i first saw your work i felt connected to it, and i don't think you should create such a big distance by talking of another country which seems far from our culture/ and we don't relate to it. You should also work on your concept, the story is nice but what's the point of it are you trying to educate us on how lucky we are to have water? Are you trying to tell a story? Are you trying to show the distance some women from  and their poor conditions? How is this relevant to us , and what are you suggesting? Don't make your work too illustrative otherwise it looses it strength and our connection to it.

Jun Ho: I think you should make some connections between your video and the actual work, at the moment it feels disjointed.

Hampus: Look at artist William Copping, and how he integrates objects to his sculptures. 

How i'll use my feedback to make my concept evolve, and my idea

I'm interested by Megan critique: " your work should be more about the jouney and less on the end point". I looked then at my work from another angle, the journey to water is authentic , traditional and in our country we are lacking of authenticity, we are not true to ourselves, it's all about beeing politically correct, hiding your feelings (masking yourself) and change your identity to a certain conventionalism and code where you will feel accepted, you hide under so many layers that your actual personality rots (reference to that in the polyeurethane foam, looks like an illness and is bright orange: not normal). What if we do this journey (like a pilgrimage, a love journey a risk) and find our identity along the way, as the journey evolves, as our lives evolve, once we arrive to the water, to the final destination we are someone else, something else. 

During the crit, Charlie felt that my concept was not relevant to us as the culture is too distant and we cannot relate, I think that this new issue concerns everyone we all mask ourselves between clothes and a certain way of thinking, our society pressure pressures us to become like everyone, we are all the same, thinking the same, like robots.

At the end of the journey, you unravel your hat of all its materialistic aspects ( the  "uniform", blue jeans, white t shirt)  and your soul is free and sent to the water If I colour my hat in a neon orange, and send it to the water it becomes a buoy asking help to the countries who are authentic, to Africa to migrants. Migrants come here because they feel they will be helped but it is us who needs them to become who we are, our authentic selves. A desperate soul is thrown into the water, asking for help, there are too much suffering from this masquerade and it makes us unhappy. By doing this, I consider isabel crit,  my work is a sculpture as well as a performance, my work becomes an object in itself rather than a hat.

Feedbacks- public: I travelled with my work but covered it in a white cloth so it doesn't get damaged in the tube, I had interesting feedbacks. Everyone looked at me wondering what was inside this, someone even lifted the cloth to see what was underneath. This shows how we are intrigued by the difference and how we are not used to it because society pressures each individuals in beeing the same in the way we think, look, act...  Someone thought it was laundry and i felt judged because he looked at me like if I was mental. This is relevant to my work because it shows how people rejects difference even on the tube we all have to be "politically correct" and be "normal".

Photoshop has enabled me to learn how to present my work and edit my pictures for my portfolio.

Important to remember : 

- how to erase something distracting from your work

- how to move people

- How to select objects with the wand tool.

These will enable me to represent my work the best i possibly can, for example I learnt how to put my work into a white space online. For my portfolio, this is important as my sculptures are not in a white space and i have other works distracting from mine.

Inspiration : From the lecture, I noticed several artists playing with the question "What is Art" (look research), Rosalind Krauss in the passage of modern sculpture talks about the struggle for the people of accepting modern art sculptures such as Carl André as Art. These questions have first been raised by Marcel Duchamp with his work the fountain.  

( Look Research Gilbert and George- Living sculptures)  Fascinated by the authenticity and traditions of African tribal cultures I started thinking that them carrying water and food on their head (journey) was an actual performance and sculpture. 

How can I relate this to our current society? 

I started experimenting with daily objects. And informed myself by reading articles on the fetching of water, I read this article about a mother of five children walking 3 kilometers to the well everyday to fetch water at the beggining of the day. My performance would be people experimenting a 300 meters journey with weight on their head (objects should fall along the journey )with water as the final destination.  I created a video at first where you can see me walking for 10 min with 30 kilos on my head, and how my body responds to it, shaking, sweating, readness,  things falling. This performance was important, I think it really showed the daily struggle these women experience, especially to me as I was the one performing and experiencing the struggle. Esthetically the video looked good, I wanted to be filmed only by one camera behind meand the person filming would be filming and following me. It was important to me that she would be walking too, because once people would see the video they would feel as if they followed me and experience the journey too. I walked for 10 minutes, and I did not want to edit these ten minutes into a shorter version, I also want my video to be silent. Watching someone walking for 10 minutes without any sound will get people "bored", it will seem like this video is never ending, and this is exactely what I want to demonstrate. "Time".

I wanted to make a connection between the video and real life, so i made a hat out of polyeurethene expanding foam. 

I struggled with the the foam as it was hard to create something in 3D, it kept falling appart. Also, someone wacked my sculpture by accident. I solved this by creating a shape with chicken wire and put my foam on top of it. I added sponges, ballons, washing gloves as a reminder of women daily chores and spraypainted it white. I chose each element by watching  my mother doing the daily chores for an hour. In an hour she used a sponge, washing gloves, she blew up baloons for my brother birthday party, she made pasta and therefore used a collinder and at last she use a dosage beaker to make the birthday cake. I felt that this thourough selection of objects would then hint my meaning: the weight on women shoulder. This was not sucessful, the objects looked random and it seemed that I was making a point on the environnement, the work reminded me of an Iceberg, or a block of ice with garbage stuck to it (pollution). I thought I could improve this, and convey my meaning by using white spray paint so the elements don't stand out as much, and then add african patterns. I chose, the colour white, because I wanted my work to be simple, as I wanted my idea to come through my work effectively. I believe that the simpler the work, the more effective the idea. Black and white are colours looking good together, simple, and a lot of african patterns were in these colours. However, the white spraypaint didn't stick on glossy surfaces such as the baloons and the washing gloves, as well as the collinder so I used acrylic paint instead.  As my work was three dimension and not flat, I couldn't do complicated patterns which i was originally thinking about as it was too difficult to draw or spraypaint (i cannot apply the stencil) (sketchbook), so I chose triangular patterns. This failed too, the work looked messy the black triangles were not structured and did not remind of the typical patterns as these are structured and gemotrical/symetric. It was important for me that the african culture/ traditions was hinted in my work because I wanted to raise awareness on some women poor conditions in Kenya, Ethiopia ... and to a certain extent the weight on all women shoulders today.

I was pleased with the outcome of the hat, the shape was as I wished, the expanding foam worked really well with my idea.  Although the shape of the hat was successful the colour white does not work, it would be more effective if colourful like Africans patterns, secondly the black triangles did not look good. And the fairy lights doesn't make sense, i added them randomly and for this reason it doesn't work. 

How can i overcome this?: I could change this by putting a cloth on and sculpting it onto the shape, or paint it in various colour. I am curious about the relationship of my objects and my work and I think that in the future I should make more connections between them and our current society. At the moment it feels like they have been randomly added to my sculpture when they are actually choosed to make a point. Maybe, my idea will come through when people will perform with my sculpture, wearing it on their head.

What will I develop in the Future? I will develop my concept so everyone feel concerned, it currently feels like i'm talking about an issue that concerns tribal cultures but are too distant from ours and people won't feel involved in my work.